Let’s celebrate the epiphany of self-destruction

my face is a balloon. my cheeks were violet after purging today.
hell. welcome. binge and purge several times a week, since...? i didn´t eat much today, i mean compared to other days. but still too much , like always. everything is too much. i don´t know why i´m doing this to myself anymore, existance - what a fuck. so finally all that left is going to be thin again. why did i always knew somehow, somewhere, that i will return anytime...maybe because it´s the only thing which makes sense somehow
i must buy a scale. tomorrow - a good day for a new start