looking in the eyes of a carousel

i lost 400gramm in a few days... yes, i started to use my scale again. i think i shouldn´t do that, but i am too interested what it might show. and it feels so undescribable calming to see that it´s not more - and so amazing to see it´s less than before.
hell, i know, that´s the decoy.
the temptation which pins me down on the carousel.
this damn one which never stops turning...